I duwanna grow up, I'm a Toy 'R' us kids...

I woke up especially early today for reasons I don’t know. All I can remember is, I had a rather ‘strange’ dream and the next thing I know, I’m awake.

Yesterday, before I fell asleep, I was thinking of something. Something that has crossed my mind many times, but I can’t do anything because it was beyond my control. I can only do as much to set the conditions so much so that it would turn out the way I expected it to but I was never good at factoring in the ‘unforeseen’ circumstances.

Anyway, about my dreams…….

As far as I could remember, everything in my dream was of perfection. I think Perfection was the key theme in my dream. I remember seeing a few friends running a restaurant and every single bit of the restaurant was to acute perfection. The tables were spotless, the décor was seamless, food…. I didn’t manage to dream about the food.

Then the whole scene changed to a residential ( or I think it’s a residential). Similarly, Everything about the house was Perfection too. It was an architectural delight. White walls, high ceiling, sparkling floors. I could perhaps, been thinking of Gardens too much and anticipating its much applauded architecture.

In my dream, I was a ‘hero’. I could fly like Peter Petrelli ( I mean peter could fly too rite? ) . I’m serious; I could actually feel the physics of flying, the wind blowing at my face and swirls down my body, I figured in my dreams that the way I position my arms determines whether I fly ascending or descending. Of course I did some acrobatic moves too, just to impress myself with my FLYING abilities. I remembered that I was having loads of fun in my dream.

If I was a hero in my dream, what heroes are without a villain?

My villain has flying ability too. Infact, Its flying abilities was far more advance and well synchronized with some sort of jet-propelled mechanical contraption. Somewhere along my dream, I acquired one of those contraptions too but was flimsy with it. ( Don’t ask me how or why. If dreams made sense, it would be called REALITY!)

The minute I woke up, at a split-second I still believed that I could fly. I positioned my arms and used my mind to control my body so that I could be aloft, but as I recollect all my senses, I believe I am in the real world already. All my ‘abilities’ were gone.

It sucks to have Dreams be crushed by the unforgiving facts of REALITY.

When I was younger, I wished I could grow old faster, but now that I’m ‘old’, I wish I was younger.

My bumming days are going to be over soon. How can I maximize FUN, minimize EXPENDITURE, elongate FUN time , and shorten WORK hrs??
Its too ideal.

Ideals. Small word, BIG implication.


IDEAL = Perfect


What are my IDEALS? Or what IDEALS I should have?
One thing for sure, there are lots of ideals that I don’t have.


Wouldn’t it be IDEAL, if I could sing ?
Wouldn’t it be IDEAL if I could write beautiful songs?
Wouldn’t it be IDEAL if I could do many other things?

Wouldn’t it be IDEAL if I could someone who can sing and 'minister' to me when i am down ? ( i've got a soft spot for girls who can sing..... gosh .. they are heavenly, like angels )

but then again .... IDEALS.....

haih ...


IDEALS.

Abstract extract

..........

"It was when you came into my life,
You made my day and you show me light,
I started to be believe,
How beautiful love can be."

...........

a NO-brainer! ..

Sometime ago, i remembered i pasted something about how confusing and complicated a girl could be but now i guess Guys aren't that simple also. Here's something i came across that may possibly emasculate the 'macho' ness in a guy. haha. ( hey ... must be fair rite ? Girls are complicated, guys aren't simple too)

Guys may be flirting around all daybut before they go to sleep, theyalways think about the girl they trulycare about

Guys go crazy over a girl's smile

Guys will do anything just to getyou to notice him

Guys hate it when you talk aboutyour ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

Boyfriends need to be reassuredoften that they're still loved.

Don't talk about your guy friends toyour boyfriend.

Guys get jealous easily.

Guys are more emotional than they'dlike people to think.

Giving a guy a hanging messagelike "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would makehim jump to a conclusion that is farfrom what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong andhe'll obsess about it trying to figureit out.

Guys are good flatterers whencourting but they usually stammer whenthey talk to a girl they really like.

A usual act that proves that the guylikes you is when he teases you.

Guys love you more than you lovethem if they are serious in yourrelationships.

Guys think WAY too much. One smallthing a girl does, even if she doesn'tnotice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.

Guys seek for advice from girls notother guys. Because most guys thinkalike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.

When a guy asks you to leave himalone, he's just actuallysaying, "Please come and listen to me."

If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen thatoften, so when it does, you knowsomething's up.

If your best guy friend seems toavoid you or is never around whenyou're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

When a guy tells you that you arebeautiful, don't say you aren't. Itmakes them want to stop telling youbecause they don't want you todisagree with them.

When a guy looks at you for longerthan a second, he's definitelythinking something.

Guys don't like girls who punchharder than they do.

A guy has more problems than you cansee with your naked eyes.

Don't be a snob. Guys can beintimidated and give up easily.( I will not say intimidated, but rather TURNED OFF by snobs!)

Guys talk about girls more thangirls talk about guys.

Guys hate rejection, but they hatebeing led on even more.

If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like abrother or just good friends, it justhurts even more. Tell them that youaren't interested in a relationshipand they will respect you.

Guys really think that girls arestrange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing butsomehow are drawn even more to them.

When a guy sacrifices his sleep andhealth just to be with you, he reallylikes you and wants to be with you asmuch as possible.

Guys and Girls are equally just as complicated contrary to the popular belief that MEN are SIMPLE creatures. :)

p/s : i dun agree with all the statements up there. I pasted it cause i said i would when i come across a guy version. :)

Cheers peeps!.

Insomnical Thoughts

I,


Supposedly, I am very tired physically but I can’t coax myself to sleep and journey to slumber land would have to wait another day.

Tonight will be the third night that I couldn’t sleep since the beginning of the year. ( it could have been more, I just lost count of the nights that I was insomniac. )

On those nights where I couldn’t sleep, I stared wide awake at the ceiling and occasionally I sink my face deep into the soft pillow on which my head rest just to see if I still need to breathe. I can’t help but to have thoughts racing through my mind, and thoughts that came so random.

Very soon, I will be sucked into the inevitable rat race where its strict ‘money earning’ regime might leave me empty with a life that earns money, and later with money trying to earn a life. Anxiety clouds my mind, my thoughts but I know, I shouldn’t fear tomorrow because He holds my future. How would my future look like? What car will I drive? Will I earn enough? Will I be happy with my new job? Will I look as glamorous as the profession seems to portray? Will a day come, when I will put a price on my integrity? Or price my security with the salary that I draw in monthly? What inspires me daily?

Inspire….. What is my aspiration ??... what is my inspiration ???


What inspires me?

I have an old friend. Not old in age, but old as in I knew this person sometime back. This person has a very pleasant personality that naturally attracts friends and coupled with a jovial attitude and a good measure of maturity, people always feel comfortable around this person. Lets name this person, X.

I’ve lost count the many times that X actually inspire me to do things. To start of, was my interview. I went for my first interview one week after I came back from Australia. I didn’t know the application got through so fast and I was immediately short listed because of my portfolio. So, hastily and unprepared, I went for my first interview. My own review was, I sucked at my first interview. I screwed up big time and I looked like a fool. I came back home quite disheartened and I told X about it.

“that’s what you think, maybe your interviewer didn’t think that way”

Just a sentence as simple as this lifted me up and gave me some kind of hope. I know its not the end. I admire the optimism demonstrated by X. A person fairly young in age but was able to see things at a whole ‘nother’ level. Maybe X didn’t even realize what that sentence meant to me but nevertheless, it inspired me. The following week, the interviewer called me up to arrange for a second interview in which we will discuss on the remuneration issues. ( what does that tell you ? hahah ). Long story short, I did not accept my first interview and went for another interview at a bigger, more established firm. I had butterflies in my stomach. I looked at my own portfolio, and I doubted myself abit. On the journey to my interview, I was listening to Ed Young Jr’s sermon from the Hillsongs Conf in July 07. There was a catch phase that he used.

“You’ve got it, Now use it”

You’ve got it, now use it. I was thinking to myself, of course I would use it … IF… I had it. This little cloud of doubt in me kept me thinking about what I don’t have and how I screwed up my first interview. Then, I thought of what X said…..

“ That’s what you think, maybe your interviewer didn’t think that way”

Mustered every ounce of confidence I have, I stepped into the Firm and looked for the person I was supposed to meet for my interview. Sat,Talked, Showed my portfolio on my laptop and at the end of my portfolio presentation, I showed them two videos that I did for my design studio. As I played the video, I noticed that my interviewer’s eyes was stucked on my laptop screen. Holding with one hand, his glasses, to make sure that his glasses stay on where it should be. At the end of my two videos, he asked me this question,

“ Do you still have some more videos ?”

His eyes wide opened gleaming with delight. GOSH , I told myself. I never expected him to like my video. After seeing all my works, he told me this,

“After seeing your work, I see that you definitely have potential”

Indeed, God was good to have blessed me with such a smooth interview and needless to say, eventually I accepted the offer to work at their firm. ( I applied , they offer, I accept )

Today, I sit here infront of my laptop, I realized that if X hasn’t told me that sentence, I guess I would still be looking for a job now. It was that sentence that inspired me and gave me confidence for the interview. Today, I only have the time to talk about one of the few things that X has ‘unconsciously’ inspired me to do.

What is my inspiration ? what is your inspiration ?

Another friend of mine once said, You are your own Inspiration. That explains the title of my previous blog. J

Chase and the Chased. Hunt and the Hunted. Pursue and the Pursued. The inevitable game in life that is beautiful and at the same time ugly. I guess that is for another time.

Some people ask me, why am I so opened to let everyone read my thoughts and be vulnerable ?
That, you have to know me before I can tell you the answer. J

Cheers !.

hasty Comeback.

I cannot believe that I am beginning to complain about Klang already. When I was in Australia, I told myself that when I go back home, I will not complain about Klang and to LOVE everything about it because Klang is not just about Bah Kut Teh. Klang comes with a whole package of good and bad. That’s what I call the “point of Equilibrium” for harmony. However, the bad side of Klang seems to be very prevalent for me today. Everywhere I go, all I see is the BAD side of Klang. For starters, I am utterly disgusted with the ‘below-par’ town planning of the Klang. I understand that the council probably lacked the benefit of the hindsight when they were planning the major roads and no one is to be blamed.. (well, in theory, City evolve around main roads and not main roads around the city .)

Articulated townships like Bukit Tinggi could have done a better job in organizing the roads and subjecting them to some sort of order. The roads goes from 1a to 1b to 1c to 1d to 1e and all the sudden, 4A??? Where the heck is 2 and 3 ??. Why am I not surprised to find that 2 and 3 is at the other end ?? ( btw, I’m referring to the roads that ends with Batu Nilams, the place where there’s a lot a lot of food and shops ) .

Honestly, it is only easy to navigate around that place with Landmarks as reference. If you follow road signs, you will definitely VOMIT blood like me today!. BODO la.

The other thing that piss me off is ONE WAY STREETS in housing areas. One Way Streets at places with High Traffic Volume is justifiable, although not totally agreeable but in housing areas? WHAT THE HECK FOR ? Maybe the JALAN SEHALA road signs are such a beautiful blueish street ornament that the council decide to decorate the whole street with those signs. Supposedly traffic disperse at housing areas because everybody lives at different parts of the housing area. NO Thanks to the ‘highly ornamental’ ONE WAY STREET sign, all traffic are streamed into one circulation path and create a high traffic concentration at specific parts/road of the housing area causing difficulty to all road users, congestion and frustrate road users like me who less frequent the place!.. What are they trying to do ? imitate IKEA? ( ok, for those of you who didn’t know, IKEA subscribe to the idea of “Forced Circulation”. Meaning to say, you have no choice under normal circumstances but to go through every single part of the store in a pre-planned path so that you will see the things you intent to buy and also ‘forced’ to see the things that you don’t intent to buy but end up buying it cause you see it “all- so- pretty”. Now that you wonder why IKEA is earning so much money) There’s a few more strategies that IKEA has but that is for another time and another place. Today its all about my frustration.

When will people be aware that they owe the Duty of Care to the people surrounding them ? Especially when we are living in a rapidly growing society . What I encountered today was a series of incident are highly regarded by me as an act of beastly savage!
I exit the Bukit Tinggi- Klang Jaya road into the main road leading to Klang New Bridge ( ok ..OLD new bridge) . I was cruising at the neck-breaking speed of 80km/h when a passenger of the lorry infront of me conveniently threw a bunch of peeled orange skin out of his window onto the road. Why that person couldn’t have thought about the safety of the road users behind? What happen if I didn’t see that it was Orange skin and thought that it was some ‘stray’ metal/wood pieces from the lorry? I would probably reacted in defense and hit the car next to me ( ok, alil exaggeration, but you get the idea ? )

Aiyo…. Why are people so irresponsible to the environment anyway ? I’m not an extreme environmentalist but I would do my part by not littering the road with rubbish! I for sure know that a ‘road rubbish’ on NKVE can potentially tear out the car’s front bumper!

Haih ………………….. seee I complain so much that I am complacent. Haha . Ok la.. nuff of complaining.. I was actually thinking of blogging a very inspirational thought until my ‘interesting’ encounter with the other side of the beautiful Klang town.

Hey Hey!!

Hey PEEPS.!

Finally, you hear from me!. After a long haitus. I'm currently blogging at Starbucks Centro with Sheila looking over my shoulders! .. ( what a pest! ) hahahha .. Just Joking!.. heheh
Oh btw, Chan Chiew Hoeeee says hie to you guys too!.. hehe ..

Anyway, the guys are here, and its time for monopoly. Alritey, now i have Su Ann looking over my Shoulder... ( What another pest! ) ahahha

alritey. I've got to go before a new 'pest' pops up!

Chioz matey!... Shiela says .. Chioz the Mouse ...

Sleep.... oh my Precious Sleep

HAHA.... Who needs a bed?

hehe....

HEY .. I have the rights to be VAIN .. Once in a while... :P hehe

Cheers!

finally.....

Tis So Sweet......

’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
And to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus says the Lord!”
Refrain

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’erJesus,
Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust Him more!

O how sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to trust His cleansing blood;
And in simple faith to plunge me’
Neath the healing, cleansing flood!

Refrain

Yes, ’tis sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just from sin and self to cease;
Just from Jesus simply taking
Life and rest, and joy and peace.

Refrain

I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.


Refrain